Why Me?

Ever ask yourself the question..."Why me?"

It is very self-centered and worldly question that I would imagine we have all asked at some point in our lives.
 

“Why me?” is a searching question that very often may be accompanied by sadness, anger, or some other emotion that brings us down.

Or perhaps put in another way, the question comes from a place of reaching out towards trying to fill a void within us.

My experience has been receiving a response of silence that offers no solace, and indeed continues the mis-guided focus of, “Why am I being put through this particular life experience?”

Eventually, and sometimes over considerable time, the pity party subsides.  However, there is usually a void left within that needs to be filled.  Usually in my weakness, it is filled with self-doubt, fear and lack of faith in things greater than me.
 

In a nutshell, my still searching question becomes,

“Why did I feel abandoned when I needed God most?”

 

 

BUT WHO HAS ABANDONED WHOM?

 

What if we ask a slightly different (if not much better) question than “why me?”

How about…

Why not God?

 

For me, this recently triggered a much different response to my soul searching.  It reminded me that I was not given life on this planet so everything (or anything for that matter) would go my way.

 

We are born (as Christ was) to give everything to God.  We have the perfect model.  The Holy Trinity does not separate the Father from the Son nor the Holy Spirit.  He creates a unity of purpose that can truly be found whenever we search for Him.  Yes, Christ died for us.  But let’s not stop there.
 

GOD HIMSELF WAS ON THAT CROSS!!!! 

 

 

He participated in the very life that we are called to.

In His humanity, Christ agonized about His calling (Luke 22:39-44), “praying so fervently that his sweat became like drops of blood falling on the ground”.  And that led Him to the cross. 
God himself died for us...to literally teach us how to love as He does.
 

In a nutshell, my still searching question becomes,

“Why did I feel abandoned when I needed God most?”
 

In a nutshell, His answer became,

“So you would find me deeper in you than you have ever looked.”
 

In Christ our Lord, Amen.